Hum... well I have been away for a while. I have not really been able to keep focused on anything. Not diet, not my job, not the house... nothing. I am truly not exactly sure why, just maybe being lazy?
A few things have brought be back around. I spent the day with my very gouragous cousin L. and she always gets me motivated. She is very dynamic and svelte. Always has been. We talked about life, love and being over 40.
I spent the day with her while she tried on beautiful size 8 clothes and while I helped her in and out of these beautiful things wished in the back of my mind, like I have 100 times that I could be wearing these stunning clothes. If only to be trying them on!
Then Friday I went out with my friend D. We went to a SKA club in Ybor. We were old broads for sure... but enjoyed it bunches. I wished so much I was not so overweight. I would have enjoyed myself MUCH more.
My weight has been on my mind all this time I just have not re-committed myself. It gets more difficult as the holidays come around. It's like knowing that I want to bake and enjoy the holidays just puts me in a frame of mind that I should just give in until Jan.
This happens every year. I have been fighting this fat for over 13 years.
Every year during the holidays I do the same thing. First I make a commitment to just bake a few things, on chosen days and the rest of the time diet.
Like only allow myself Thanksgiving and the day after off. Also I do the same thing around Christmas. I decide I will diet most of the month and only bake 3-4 days out of it. Knowing that I am going to have to make my Christmas Snowflakes. (It's just not Christmas if I don't. It feels just wrong). They are such a tradition and they feel important to me. I always make them for Patrick to take to the office and I think they make him feel special that day while everyone oooh's and awwww's them. They are pretty spectacular if I say so myself *smile*.. check out a pix of them:
